State of Mind

The motherhood cycle. Something I've been thinking about lately.

We'll start off really simple. You find out you're pregnant!

 

You're scared out of your mind because you've never done this before and wa-blam! Baby is here before you know it!

 

You think you know what you're doing. You think everyone is on the same wavelength as you as far as your baby goes. If you're like me, you get territorial over your baby. When Ayden was born my Mom and my Mother-in-law came to help me with Ayden at different times. I will admit now, that I was crazy in some fashion. My mother-in-law bought a really cute teddy bear that makes the sounds your baby would hear while in the womb. I was instantly jealous of the stupid bear. Like it could replace me!

I also remember one Aunt who we visited after Ayden was about 3-4 weeks old and she just swooped in and picked Ayden up without asking me. I was so cheesed. The nerve of her to just pick up my baby without even asking. Boy was I miffed.

 

This is what territorial looks like. But on a completely random baby that I found on the internet that gave me the perfect bug eyes look that I was going for.

For about the first year of their life, if not longer you don't want to go out on dates. You'd rather stay home or bring the baby with you. You feel bad if you leave the baby with someone else for too long.

 

Or you start to get paranoid. You go on a date, have dinner and before the movie you call to make sure everything is ok.

Now you realize you're ready for another adorable baby to come into your family and you get pregnant again!

You look back at how you acted with your first and think, wow it must have been SO obvious that I was a first time Mom. Instead of wanting to stay at the hospital longer because you know you get help there, you want to go home.

Instead of getting mad because the Auntie just took the baby without asking. You hope that she'll pick one of your two kids up so you can get away from them for a bit.

Instead of getting jealous of silly teddy bears, you're glad you have it so you're not the one that has to cuddle with the baby all the time because you have that other baby running around the house that you have to care for.

Here is the teddy I was jealous of by the way. :)

And lastly, I have been trying to find a couple to trade off weekends with since the dawn of time- or at least since the dawn of Ethan! Because instead of stay home and bask in my childrens' love and chaos, I would rather get out of the house with my husband! NOT because I love my kids less, but so that I can handle being around their craziness.

My kids' pediatrician always tells me that I'll love my children more if I see them less on the weekends. :)

  

Now I just need to find a couple that is actually ready to go on date nights and that is willing and able to trade weekends with me! Oh and that lives in the same state as me!

I have a feeling that after I have more children that I'll still look back at my state of mind now and go 'wow, I really had no idea what I was doing. Why would I ever want to do this?! or that!?'

Does this sound pretty familiar to the Mommies out there? Maybe its just me.